to whom it may concern..

بِسْمِ اللّهِ الرَّحْمـَنِ الرَّحِيمِ

ngaaa..assalamualaikum..this is my 5th attempt to write a functional blog!hehe..hopefully this one will last long enough to reach atleast 3 posts..ngaaaa... nothing to say more but a lot of work to do.. i've started my short sem yesterday..took dermatology to improve my grades.. and ofcourse to conquer it.. very interesting module.. coz there's like 200+ skin diseases..and most of the lesions look similar.. crazy huh? but insyaAllah i wanna make the knowledge stuck in my head... plz make du'a for me.. :)

oh..sumthing interesting.. i was browsing my pictures folder and started to open my high school pictures..ngaaaaa...the memories flashbacked!..i was so young back then(i am 1 first digit older this year..if u know what i mean ;) but the picture that caught my eyes was this one...




yeah..me sitting at the table i took my spm..wow.. talk about memories.. i can recall back the time when my friend who was sitting beside me ask to reveal my biology answer to him..and ofcourse i didn't!..hehe.. and that's the table where i slept because i had leftover time for my EST paper..gosh...haha..... but the thing that flash into my head was..what was i thinking back then.....??

1. " biler lah aku nk kua dr skola ni...haaaaaaaaaa.."..yup..i kinda hated my school back then.no offense but for me that school was a boring,nothing seemed interesting,xberkembang school.hehe..sorry..but i still owe the teachers that thought me..jasamu tetap dikenang cegu!
2. "takot giler nk spm ni...cam cannot go jek..argh!"..i was scared giler.ye r..we were told that our future is on the line..sape yg xtakot dak?huhu..ouh and i studied last minute..so mmg rase cam tade harapan nk score..ngaaa
   
3. "laponye.."sbb time tu puase..hehe..if u looked closely on the upper right of the picture u can see it writings of "hari raya:12hari lgi" on the blackboard...sape la yg tulih tuh..xde mood nk rayer pon time tuh..

hmmm..that was me...the"aku kene score btul2 spm ni so aku bleh dpt scholar so aku dpt blaja oversea,main salji pastu jadik dokter,jadik kaye,kawen,dpt ank pastu kerja n kerja lgi pastu pencen n it was time to go" me..*gulp*..itulah ke"skemaan" hidupku dulu..but after school and college..and now in uni doing medicine..i have changed a lot...

i can still remember.. at that age,i've thought of.."siapa aku ni sebenarnyer"..i was in a 'seeking for myself' mode... and many things had i tried and bumped into..such as trying to live a life of fashion,music and fun..*malunye bile ingt balik*.. it was probably the result of peer pressure and the environment i was in..

siapa aku ni sebenarnye?

apekah aku ni dulu??.. but as i lived as a "normal"(yg sebenarnyer abnormal) malaysian teenager..i was also fond of things that can make me closer to Allah.. there's always a place in my heart for Him...i tried to take Allah as no 1 in my life but it cannot be done with the lifestyle that i was living...


who am i now?

after college.. i went to the uni that i do want to go to.. thinking that my uni life was going to suck compared to others that got good unis here..BUT actually..
Allah wanted to give me the greatest gift of all...

He gave me them...

sisters for dunia and akhirat

and a certain special kakak....kak D..she introduced me to the world of "tarbiyyah".. she helped me to see what we were suppose to see in life.. why were we created..who we are in this world...

"Aku tidak menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan agar mereka beribadah kepadaKu"
[51:56]

" Dan ingatlah ketika Tuhanmu berfirman kepada para malaikat,"Aku hendak menjadikan khalifah di bumi".........."
[2:30]

" Wahai org yg berselimut! Bangunlah serta berilah peringatan dan amaran"
[74:1-2]

"Dan hendaklah di antara kamu ada segolongan org yg menyeru kpd kebajikan,menyuruh (berbuat) yg makruf dan mencegah dari yg mungkar.Dan mereka itulah org-org yg beruntung"
[3: 104]

rase seperti ditampar kat muke dgn hebat.i've realized that there was more to life than what i have thought of. Alhamdulillah.Alhamdulillah.Alhamdulillah.jazakillah kak for bringing me back to my roots,which is Islam... ketabahan dan kegigihan akak menyentuh hati saya.. moga akak sentiasa diberkati dan tergolong dlm org2 yg sentiasa dincintaiNya..and i really adore u very much...

terima kasih juga kepada "them".. yg menunjukkan ku ukhwah "spectacular" yg xpernah kulihat sebelum ini..which is ukhwah fillah.. the strongest bond ever in this world; the bond of faith..i love u sisters forever.. terima kasih krn sentiasa membimbingku... kalian adalah saudaraku dunia dan akhirat...

" Dan berpegang teguhlah kamu semuanya pada tali(agama) Allah dan janganlah kamu bercerai-berai, dan ingatlah nikmat Allah kepadamu ketika kamu dahulu
(masa jahiliyyah) bermusuhan,lalu Allah mempersatukan hatimu, sehingga dengan karuniaNya kamu menjadi bersaudara, sedangkan(ketika) itu kamu berada di tepi jurang neraka,lalu Allah menyelamatkan kamu dari sana.Demikianlah, Allah menerangkan ayat-ayatNya kepadamu agar kamu mendapat petunjuk"
[3:103]

and the most important thanks is of course to my God Allah..the Almighty.. for bringing me here.. i love You very much ,every second of mylife... subahanAllah..alhamdulillah..Allahuakbar!... for without You i will never be here in this world.. for without Your hidayah i can never taste the sweetness of iman and Islam.. for without You i would had still be in the darkness of jahiliyyah... forgive me for all my sins...

"there is no God but Allah and Muhammad is the messenger of Allah"

looking back at it now.. it's beautiful how my journey of life goes .. how Allah planned everything so meticulously until i found the path im in right now...subhanAllah..

yes mr.frost.. i did took the road less traveled by and indeed it made all the diffrence; it was a extremely better, peaceful and blessful road than the other :)

it does not end here.its just starting to begin.what's next is for me to be istiqomah/consistent in this path and spread the faith of Islam .
semoga aku kekal berada di jalan ini..kerna tiada jalan yg lebih baik dr berada di jalan para Nabi dan para sahabat...amin

"ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau condongkan hati kami kepada kesesatan setelah engkau berikan petunjuk kepada kami dan karuniakanlah kepada kami rahmat dari sisiMu,sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Pemberi"
[3:8]

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